This Is Me: A Letter from the Inside Out

Hi, I’m Jillana Michelle. That’s Jillana — with a soft “a,” like a breeze through summer leaves (and yes, I’m always curious if you’ll pronounce it right). My middle name is Michelle, and if you’ve ever heard a mother shout it in full — “Jillana Michelle!” — then you’ve heard the sound of childhood mischief echoing through a hallway.

This is not your average introduction. This is a mosaic of me — past, present, and becoming.

I Am Both Adventure and Stillness

I’m the girl who books a spontaneous road trip without blinking... and the woman who treasures lazy mornings with coffee in hand and no agenda. I love movement — being outside, hiking, dancing in the kitchen, snowboarding down fresh powder, or just walking barefoot through the grass. I also love stillness — bubble baths, rainy days, meditating, journaling under soft candlelight, watching the sunset settle everything down.

I’ve never been afraid to try something new. Whether it’s traveling across the world, tasting something I can’t pronounce, or diving headfirst into a new healing modality, I’m here for it. Life is one grand experiment — and I’m both the scientist and the subject.

I Am Loud Laughter and Quiet Sensitivity

You’ll find me singing full-volume on road trips — country music blasting, windows down, hair wild. I laugh loud and often. I cry when I’m angry. I forgive easily, sometimes too fast. I’m sensitive and I feel things deeply. I’ve overthought a million conversations and sat in silence trying not to.

I can be grumpy when I’m cold. Or hungry. Or both. But I’ll still give you the last bite of dessert. I’m a natural caregiver — I love to nurture, give gifts, hold space. And yes, sometimes I give too much.

I believe in loyalty. I value honesty more than almost anything. I’ve been hurt by lies, disappointed people I’ve loved, and been disappointed in return. I know what it means to sit in the messy middle and still choose connection.

I Am Contrast

I love fashion and planning... but I also love staying in pajamas all day. I adore log cabins and luxury hotels. I love clean spaces but can create chaos when I’m creating something meaningful. I love the ocean’s roar and the mountain’s whisper. I’m a fast driver and a slow talker when it matters. I love surprises, but I also love lists. I love structure and I love freedom.

Rules? I bend them. Break them. Rewrite them. Unless we’re talking about trust, respect, or love — those I protect fiercely.

I Am A Story of Becoming

I was once an overweight, insecure little girl who didn’t know her worth. Now I stand in my power — imperfectly, but proudly. I’ve worked hard to love the woman I’ve become, and I’m still learning how to care for her better each day. I’ve learned how to speak up. How to set boundaries. How to walk away from what doesn’t nourish me — even when it hurts.

I’m intuitive. Empathic. Fiercely loyal. I can be selfish sometimes — usually when I’m protecting my peace. I’ve made peace with being a woman who feels too much, wants big things, and refuses to shrink to fit any room.

I Am Love and Longing

I adore my family. My nieces and nephews are little stars in my sky. Big family gatherings? Yes, please. But I also crave alone time like air. I’m an introvert who loves people. I’m fascinated by their stories, their struggles, their resilience.

I want a relationship that feels like partnership — one rooted in trust, friendship, and fire. I think intimacy is built moment by moment, and that laughter, sex, curiosity, and shared dreams are glue for the soul. I’m drawn to men who lead with heart and take initiative — a little bossiness never hurt (unless we’re not in the bedroom — then back off, I’ve got this).

I Am Wild, Witty, and Wondering

I’ve dreamed of a white convertible Jeep, matching my bright mood and even brighter outfits (yes, my panties and socks have to match — it’s a thing). I love bonfires, live music, the smell of gas, psychological thrillers, and solving mysteries. I once wanted to be a detective after watching Miss Congeniality.

I’m picky about water. I hate gossip. I don’t care for politics and religion has been a winding, confusing road — one I’m still walking with an open heart. I believe in equality, compromise, and that communication is the heartbeat of every relationship. I believe in the beauty of balance, and that we are all walking stories with something sacred to share.

This Is Me

A walking contradiction. A soulful spark. A woman who dreams big, falls hard, forgives fast, and never stops exploring — the world or herself.

If you’ve made it this far, maybe you see a piece of yourself here too. Maybe your heart whispers me too in the quiet lines between these words.

This is me — Jillana Michelle — a woman of light and shadow, of fire and tenderness, of laughter and longing.

And I’m so damn glad to be her.

Now It’s Your Turn

What would your “This Is Me” letter say?

What quirks, truths, and wild-hearted dreams define you?
What parts of yourself have you outgrown, and what parts are just beginning to bloom?

I’d love to hear your story — the beautiful, messy, evolving version of you.
Drop a comment below, send me a message, or share your own letter and tag me.

Because in the end, we’re all just remembering who we really are.
And when we do it together, it’s even more powerful.